so much has changed
i see why i was afraid
it was temporary
i tried to deny
that the joy would end
clouds rolling in again
in the distance i could see
fading ecstacy
the dark days coming fast
but never thought i'd be this lost

i underestimated
how devastated
how entirely mutilated
life would be

the chain reaction
of that one decision
look at the devestation
180 degrees
in the opposite direction

he pulls me down
undoing all i'd become
i thought i was new
old ties unglued
he's taken the sun from my sky
and my joy has run dry...

i never thought today would be the day
when the tears still running down my face
would suddenly be wiped away
but I found myself wrapped in your arms
i knew it was you before turning around
and in that moment I breathed you in
I forgot the pain stranded within

i felt your warmth surge deep inside
with your sweet face touching mine
and in that moment i held onto
the love you bring when i'm with you
and i felt the pain melt away
healing the scars of lonely days

but deep inside i kept denying
today intensifying, excuses multiplying
that i will see you after this
but we'll separate further to fading bliss
today was just another goodbye
i can't accept that it is time

you left and i grew cold again
knowing how it will always end
you fading into the distance
regardless of my persistence
it's even harder to say farwell to you friend

again

you never realized
you were the only one saying goodbye
cause hidden inside
i had started this fire
one that's kept me alive
burning with that one sweet thought
the dream of being with you it brought
and somehow i keep believing
but i'm only denying

what's it going to take
for me to really break
can i ever accept
that i can't protect
this stupid dream
of you and me

i don't know what to say
i never felt that way
how special it was
to be so close
but i never realized
you were so far away

i never realized
i'd be the one witholding goodbye
desperate, holding fast
to what could never last
i've got to stand
without your hand
time to let go of it all
time to stand tall
i need to keep crying
stop denying

Drove by the house today
instantly i felt the pain
the sting of what has past
oh how it lasts
through the windows
there was a woman laughing
carrying her child, celebrating
completely unaware
of the abuse that happened there
and i found myself unable to stop
i can't imagine what she thought
me staring in
cold and captured by what i was seeing
stunned at the seasons changing
the sun setting to this phase of grief
i squint to see through the glare
to see a mother's smile bringing relief
how warm i felt to see
how the dark won't happen anymore
within those walls it is now safe
day by day the sorrow erased
the pain replaced